Something that people don”t know about me, is I have a crush on Gordon Ramsey. This is something that developed before I moved to Utah, when I started watching Hell’s Kitchen in 2007. I really don’t put him on much anymore because the way Hell’s Kitchen started to go, started to really unimpress me.
Last night, I was looking through what was on the Roku channel and I found Hell’s Kitchen. 15 seasons. I thought what the hell, and I hit play on Season 1. Wow, was he brutal! Season 2 is on now. The difference between the two was unbelievable. But this was when it was good, before the networks started censoring the crap out of him.
Back before he became a big ole softy! But I do like him. I also liked him on Master Chef, when it first started. Him, Joe and Graham. I watched it the other day, and Joe’s this big ole marshmallow now. What the hell?
I don’t enjoy reality tv, I really don’t. But then I realize that what I have been watching over the last few months, is nothing but! Walking Dead’s coming back on in a few weeks, and I’ll actually sit down and watch the show. Most of the time now, it’s on for noise.
However, I did upgrade my cable package to get USA back early. They had started doing 10 episodes series earlier this year, when I got sucked into ‘Unsolved” which was about Biggie and Tupac. The one that’s on now is “The Purge”.
That stuff’s scary, because something tells me in the future, that might just happen.
I’d like to say that I didn’t really think that, but the world and the way it’s going, I’m not hopeful. Which makes me sad, when I think of my great niece and great nephew. It’s their generation that is going to have to deal with the crap that is transpiring now.
But that is not something I’m even going to touch on today, because that can get overwhelming.
Back to Gordon, I do want to go to one of his restaurants someday. There are a few in Vegas that I would like to get to someday, but who knows when that will be. I had been hoping to get to Vegas for my birthday, but I’m staying home instead. I can do it cheaply, but I don’t want to. Not now anyway.
I’m scared about this season of Walking Dead. It’s hard to believe that before the start of 2017, I hadn’t even seen an episode, and here I am almost counting down the days to when it has the season premiere. Curse you Jeffrey Dean Morgan, it really was all your fault. Someone lured me in with you.. and here I am now.
And I still can’t get him to respond to one of my tweets. My heart aches …. Kidding. But it was all because of him that I got that far into the show. With what I’ve learned about what’s going to happen this season, has me a bit worried. That will be one time I don’t think I’ll appreciate Johnny Cash’s “Hurt”.
I’ve got some new neighbors, who I have come not to like very much. In the 8 years that I’ve been in this apartment, I’ve never had to deal with the crap that I’ve dealt with in the last 2 months. Drama. Drama. Drama. I think that when the mom rented this place, it was going to be just here, but something happened where her son had to move in with her. And soon, his boyfriend followed.
I don’t think she really has any idea what it’s like when she’s gone, because she works hard. She’s gone a lot. And all the stuff that happens, she doesn’t know about. And I keep that in mind when I deal with the crap. I’ve decided to retaliate though. They are so noisy between 5 to 10 pm. Banging, the walls getting hit, one day I was sitting at the table, and there were four pounds on the floor/ceiling right above me. And I didn’t even have the tv or music on.
It just makes me very uncomfortable because I’m used to silence. I’ve been blessed until now, with amazing neighbors. I’m reading now, just how lucky I truly was.
The energy in the neighborhood has gone down the tubes over the last few months. I’ve got a dumb*** that lives with his mom on the corner. What bothers me about him the most, is that he’s identical to someone else I know. Who lives with his mother, and takes advantage of her. Emotional abuse. Blames his mother for all the bad decisions he’s made in his life. I honestly,, am really sick and tired of these people.
That sense of entitlement.
Where did this come from? I think in some ways, we’re all selfish and we all decide the world owes us, but I don’t remember ever being as selfish as some of the people I’ve known in my life.
But again, another day for the topic as well.
On a positive note, I’m really excited for a new opportunity in my life. I’m going to be dealing cards again. I haven’t done that for years, but I have always enjoyed it. The social aspect of it, and having a good time with people. I have been wanting to play cards, so this is a great chance for me to make some extra money. It will be for parties, and we can actually teach people how to play the game. I couldn’t do that when I was a dealer in a casino.
But what I’m most excited for is to deal Roulette again.
I love that game. I really do. And I keep thinking about the last time I played.. It was that night on the cruise ship, when Ivan was sitting at the table next to me. He was playing three card poker. I bought in for $40, and I had the time of my life on that game that night. When I cashed out, I cashed out with $40. Best night. It really was. And I realize a big part of that was because I had awesome dealers. So, why not be that person for someone else. My first lesson will be don’t be afraid of the 00.
I go for the training tonight. I’m excited. : )
On that note, I’ll sign off for now. Max is doing great, I can tell he’s feeling better now that the weather is cooling off. I need to figure out the car thing though. He’s still not willing to get in. I know that this is because of the last time he got in, and got hurt. The ramp slipped. One of the first things I do when I start making money, is look at ramps for him.
I went to see my old therapist a few weeks ago. It was nice to talk to her, and I realized that I’m not as messed up as I thought. I just needed to empty out. It was good to do that. Sometimes I need to just empty the train of thought, and start over. Because sometimes things are bothering me that have no right to be even on my mind! That’s annoying. But it was good to see her.
My point of telling you that? Don’t be afraid to admit that it feels good to have someone to talk to. Sometimes that things that are bothering us, need to be discussed, but really, we don’t want to to hurt anyone. Because you know that someone along the line, will misconstrue something we are not trying to be mean about. But they’ll take it the wrong way because they always expect the worst.