I’ve been thinking a lot about this blog. It’s nothing what I wanted it to be when I started it, but I haven’t given up on it. I’ve been getting things together to really start putting the game plan together.
When I started, what I wanted to do was just share my experiences with everything, in case someone out there was going to be able to benefit from my … stupidity most likely. If I could stop someone from doing something, and trying something sooner, that’s ideally what I wanted.
It’s really what I still want, but I haven’t really done the writing I’ve wanted to do over the last few years. Mostly because I wasn’t comfortable with myself yet. With anything really. But that’s not the case anymore.
First of all, I’m so glad that I finally have this keyboard. I LOVE it because it’s also a wonderful new case for my IPad. I didn’t by this IPad, it was a gift from my little brother. And I really never made it my own, I used the cases that he gave me. They’re both black. Which is fine. But then I got to thinking, it’s okay for me to do something nice for my IPad.
I love this thing. This iPad I mean. I never realized how much I really do enjoy using this, and now that I have this new case and keyboard… I’m so happy because its awesome. It’s nothing fancy, but the case is sturdy, and they all stay together, and my screen stands up perfectly. I’ve only had it a few hours, and this is the most I’ve typed on it, but so far I have no complaints. Usually by now, I’d have found the issues.
There are none. So, yay for that.
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, and it really bothered me to see just how much about that band I really wrote about. Today, I couldn’t care less about any of that stuff. I mean, you know what I mean I hope.
It’s not their fault, that’s all my own. And now, I can focus on moving forward.
For starters, I figured out why I was so obsessed with that night on the cruise ship years ago with Ivan. It really had nothing to do with him, but it did have everything to do with the fact that I had a blast on the roulette table.
So, when I figured that out, I found myself a part time job doing casino parties. I dealt roulette, blackjack and honestly, really enjoyed myself. It was good money for the time that I spent, and really enjoyed meeting some nice people.
I think that when I figured that out, I was able to move past that whole thing. Because now, I feel content. Sincerely content.
Max is doing better than he has been. He’s lost weight and seems to really love the new snow fall. It scares me when I think he’s going to be 8 this year. But I’m thankful for every day I have. That creature. … makes me laugh every single day.
I’m also taking up a new hobby. I treated myself to watercolor paints this month. I’ve been wanting to get them for sometime, so since I did so well last month, I treated myself to them as well as this keyboard. Turns out my paints will last me the rest of my life since the tubes were HUGE. There are some nice colors, and I’m not sure what I’m going to work on first.
On that note, thanks for reading. I’m assuring you, I’ve got some big plans for the future on this blog. And there’s not backing down anymore. I’m done with the lack of follow through I’ve had in my life, and I’ve got things to prove now.
Things to see, places to go, people to meet. All of the above. Stay tuned for the more interesting side of me to come soon.
I’m seriously thinking about doing a blog about crop circles. They are interesting to me.